Hi, I'm Lisa and I blog at Fern Creek Cottage where you will usually see lots of pretty pictures.
I love DIY projects and decorating my home on a budget!
I have to admit I was pretty scared when Kristin asked me to write in her Attitude of Gratitude series, but I love the idea so I'm plunging into the deep end.
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It is easy peasy to feel grateful when everything in life is smooth sailing.
You can sit around your thanksgiving table with a smile on your face thinking, life is good!
But what about when your life isn't looking so great; maybe you're experiencing job loss, sickness or even a death in the family.
Can you feel grateful when life, quite frankly, pretty much sucks at the moment?
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Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is my strength.
Nehemiah 8:10b
If you've been going to church for any length of time you've probably heard this verse.
But for years I wondered...what in the world does it mean?
But, then I lived it and I knew.
I had been to the doctors that day and found out I was having a miscarriage-again.
I was devastated.
Really that isn't even a strong enough word.
My whole being was filled with sorrow.
But I was also a mommy to my wonderful son Grant and it was Awana night at church.
So instead of crawling under the covers and crying I got in the car and went to church.
While Grant was having fun, I slipped into a seat for bible class and I made sure I sat in the middle of a long row of chairs, hoping no one would sit near me.
The service started and tears were continually running down my face.
Then it was time for us to sing.
I stood up and tried to join the others in singing.
The next thing you know, I am singing in full strength, while crying.
I am still devastated and yet filled with joy.
I was blessed to be worshipping my Jesus who loves me.
It was an odd and yet wonderful experience and it occurred to me that night, that it had happened....the joy of the Lord was my strength!
It wasn't something I had to summon up from within myself.
No!
It was something that burst out of me while glorifying God.
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.
As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.
Isaiah 55:8-9
When my life isn't making any sense.
When I'm screaming out inside "Why, why, why?"
I go to my life verses that you just read above.
The first time I read them I was sitting in bed reading a book about a woman who hiked across the United States.
The author had scattered bible verses though out the bottom of some of the pages in the book.
I read these verses from the book of Isaiah and immediately started crying.
In fact I burst into tears.
I felt such relief.
A huge burden had been lifted from my shoulders!
I don't have to know "why."
I don't have to figure anything out at all.
God has shown himself to be so good to me and when something scary and confusing happens I can trust Him. He knows what He is doing!
Believe me girls, I'm not preaching to you.
I am reminding myself!
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My story has a happy ending. :)
After three miscarriages and traveling down many different adoption roads and having many doors close, we finally were able to adopt Levi.
Oh happy day!
My sweet boys, Levi and Grant, this summer.
I am so grateful for them!!
Thank you so much for letting me share a bit of my story with you.
Any questions, comments, stories you want to share with me?
I would LOVE to hear them!

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Thank you for sharing! I have had four miscarriages myself so I know how deavestating it is. I have many friends who adopt and I think you become a real life hero!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry you have had four miscarriages. No woman should have to go through that. Adopting doesn't make me feel like a hero, but it has been a blessing for our family. :)
DeleteThis was so beautiful Lisa and I'm certainly sensing that there is going to be a common thread among all of our posts in this series of being able to praise God and feel gratitude even in the midst of painful times. :-) As a fellow adoptive mama I know just how AMAZING the experience is and how it daily reminds you of God's faithfulness!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing your heart with all of us today,
Vanessa
Thank you Vanessa! I was shocked when we both wrote about the same theme. I thought I was going to be such an original. :) lol
DeleteAdoption truly is a reminder of God's love for us since He has adopted up as His children.
Oh Lisa... I didn't know this about you, I am so glad you shared with us your pain and how you came out better in the end. Having gone through the heartbreak of miscarriages I know how hard it is. Yet, god is always there to help us through. You are an amazing person and you have been blessed with such a beautiful family.
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Kristin
I'm so sorry to hear that you have been through miscarriages too Kristen. Although it was uncomfortable for me to share, I feel like women don't talk about it enough and then when you go through it you feel so alone. So thankful I always have God to lean on! Thank you for your kind words. They mean a lot to me! xo Lisa
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ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your beautiful heart with us today. We never really understand the true meaning of rejoicing with joy through our sorrows until God brings us through it. What a reminder to us who walk in faith that His faithfulness is forever. Much love to you my friend xoxo Kate
Oh Kate, how I wish we lived down the street from each other and could visit in person! You are always so kind and say the sweetest things! I am so thankful I have you as bloggy friend! xoxo Lisa
DeleteWhat a brilliant series - and starting off with two really awesome bloggers too. I love it! I'll be following along - I've signed up to subscribe!
ReplyDeleteI love the idea of taking time to appreciate each and every thing we've been entrusted with. It brings a new level of joy to every moment!
Sarahx
I agree with you Sarah, Kristin's series is a brilliant idea! Very uplifting!
DeleteLisa...I hope it helped you to open up in this post, I was crying as I read it. You are such a strong person and your faith has kept you that way through so many ups and downs. You are a beautiful person inside and out and it makes me so happy to see the picture of your whole family. You are blessed!
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Jane
Jane, your comment is making me cry! You are always so sweet and thoughtful! Thank you!! xoxo Lisa
DeleteLisa, thank you for sharing your story! Sometimes its hard to have faith when we don't know where our journey is taking us. Each person has a different story but we all have the same Strength to power us through, and your story is a such lovely reminder!!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! I agree with you. It can be difficult to have faith when you don't understand what is going on, but then later I see God's fingerprints all over the situation. Each time it helps my faith grow for the next time my faith is tested. Blessings to you!
DeleteThank you for sharing. It's a very touching story, reminding me of how God carried us through the early years of autism (still does but differently) with our son. There have been challenges, but none too big for Him.
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Thank you so much Janet! It's always good to know that if we strech out our hand He is there to hold it!
ReplyDeletesuch a wonderful story, Lisa! And so powerful. I'm so happy for you and for the journey it brought you. I understand that point of weakness, and feeling the Spirit lift you to a place that we can't muster ourselves. Thanks so much for having the courage to share your story!
ReplyDeleteYou put it so beautifully Denise. I wish I could write like you do! Thank you so much for youe kind words!
Deleteaw, you are too kind, Lisa! :)
DeleteI love how the Lord used you and Vanessa to both talk about the Joy of the Lord.
ReplyDeleteI also love that we both have babies in heaven waiting for us.
It will be a special day when we get to hold our heavenly babies, won't it? I get teary every time I think about it. But it is a joyful type of teary. xo Lisa
DeleteReading about your pain has me weeping. This is such an inspirational story. Thank you so much for being brave enough to share it. I am so grateful for the happy ending.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry I made you cry Mom. You are right though, our little Levi is a very happy ending to the story. :)
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