Today is the sixth post in the Attitude of Gratitude series. Click here for the complete list of posts.
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I am so excited to share our story with all of you, and to be included in the line up of great bloggers.
This makes me smile to see happiness through gratefulness!
I’ve only just typed the title, and my throat is constricting and tears are starting to come.
More doctor appointments for me.
No test seemed to reveal anything specific, so it was chalked up to the possibility of the endometriosis.
A year and a half later,
And she let him know!
I know some of you are skeptical- it was the surgery- the wonders of modern medicine.
Some of you might also be thinking that going to the adoption classes was something like teasing fate or “getting our mind off of having a baby”.
We were excited that this miracle happened, and also disappointed that our journey into adoption seemed to be telling us to yield at that time.
I truly believe that God knows what is best for each and every one of us, even though it doesn’t always make sense to us.
I grappled for so long at all the why’s and why not’s.
I learned that I just have to trust.
|San Diego 2001|
Specifically, Carl’s Jr. sourdough melts….
…and then eat a regular dinner two and a half hours later.
Laughing about this with a coworker, she wondered aloud if I might be pregnant.
It was like someone smacked some sense into me.
I went home and took a test.
I remember standing in our bathroom, and I literally slapped myself on the cheek.
We didn’t feel prepared to have potentially two babies at once!
It was surreal.
Two years later, we tried again for a second baby, and I under went another laparoscopic surgery.
I had an early term miscarriage, shortly after.
We made monthly visits to OHSU for visits to the infertility clinic.
After a serious bout of depression, I decided, enough.
Life is too short for me to not be enjoying- and thankful- for just one child.
The blessing we already have.
The friendships and conversations it has allowed us.
The Bible study I am in right now is written by Beth Moore.
(Stepping Up, A Journey Through the Psalms of Ascent)
I read this quote the other night, and thought it was so applicable:
He knows when something glorious in the future necessitates something difficult in the present. Because He knows the glory will be worth it, God will risk being misunderstood. Yes, God wants us to have joyful, satisfying lives, but He also wants us to have crowns to cast. Rewards to receive. Character to develop. Compassion to give. Testimonies to tell. In the midst of those painful processes, God makes bold promises.
It’s pretty personal, and not my usual kind of post on my blog, but I love sharing it.
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